Dahlia House

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the only time I have to write is if I wake up at 4am, and if I don't have to be at work by 9am...I love this. I am not in school yet, but I am trying. city college does not have online classes in the field I want to take, so I need to do online courses, which I have to pay for and which is really frustrating me trying to make the best decisions along with figuring out my finances. but I still  wake up at 4am anyways, even if I have not officially started school I still wake up and train my body to do what I have to do: study, and yoga. I make my bed as soon as I wake up. I make herbal tea, no coffee, no caffeine, and I stay awake. I read from four different books, including one of my favorite versions of the Bible: a Life Recovery Bible, in a New Living Translation. the Bible is not a scripted reading for me, I simply open the book to whatever page opens, and read from there. today I opened to a page entitled Reflections on Judges. I haven't read the whole page yet but I immedi...

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I don't know what my mother was thinking. back then sex ed class was in 6th grade and I was the only one that had to go to the library. being forced to do this led me to discovering that I loved to read books about dragons and fantasy but I was alone, as usual. ive always had friends in school but that's where they were, school, not home, not anywhere else. I remember this girl had gotten her period and everyone said she was a slut. I still remember her beautiful face, lips, and big hair. I remember I was a tyrant. I got in fights with other kids, even in elementary school. a boy lifted up my dress, so I punched him in the face, a lot. a girl made fun of my shiny forehead, so I punched her too. but this life of fighting was nothing new in 6th grade. ive been fighting since I was born. this to be told another time as my eyes are already tearing up here at exactly 444 a.m. I wanted to talk about my mother not letting me go to sex ed. something in the Just For Today book opened th...

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So I have just created a youtube channel Dahlia House. This is to mark my journey so I can see my own progress along the way. These videos will be raw and recorded and loaded on first take. My schooling is a two year program and I am very sure I will have done so much by then. I mention in this video that I do not have an NA sponsor but that I have experienced just a small taste of the power of working the 12 Step program. Going to meetings every week and reading literature also shows me the power NA has in other lives. I am in no rush to find one person to confide in, what I have is too much for just one person to handle. So this blog will be my outlet and I will confide in all of you, since it is all of you that have made my experiences possible. I will learn to forgive and you will learn to forgive. I will learn to accept and you will learn to accept. We can go on this journey of healing together. And it is a blessing for me to include your stories to share with the world on my blo...