Dahlia House

I went to 2 NA meetings today... at the second one I shared something that I would like to share with you now...I have been running away since I was 11 years old...I used to dream all the time and longed to be kidnapped...I wanted some stranger to rescue me and take me away from the situation I was in... but noone ever came to save me...we lived in a 2 bedroom apartment on the second floor filled with small roaches and other torments...the person who was supposed to be my mother slept in the bigger master room, while the 3 of us had the much smaller room with bunkbeds and a crib...I feel like I cried most days there...I feel like I was beaten most days there...she is still sick to this day...I still hate her and wish harm on her to this day... but the good thing is that I hardly ever think of her so I don't have to have that negative shit in me much...at the meeting I shared that since 11 years of age when I got my period in 7th grade I would jump out of my second story bedroom win...

wtf I don't know why people hate on the Bible...apparently there are a lot of people I am learning that grew up with religion the wrong and negative way...but you and I are adults now. I have major spirituality...I love praying every day and all day, its what keeps me calm and focused...prayer is a form of meditation...but I came here today because I opened my Bible to Psalm 37...I haven't read the whole chapter because the first verse blew me away...ive been thinking negatively lately...why do these people get to do what they want while other people struggle...don't hate on the Bible...open the freakin book and LISTEN TO IT...just read the message it has for you today...I'm not trying to tell you to be Christian, I don't believe in any one religion...but you cannot deny this book written by many wise men and women (even tho many of the women are excluded from such credits)...if there are any spiritual books you would like to recommend I would appreciate you buying ...